Ouchh

As we grow older and find our sense of independence, there are some fun and unforgetful daily encounters that makes every minute seem like your last, while there are also those unlucky days where you try hard to avoid or find excuses for... not gonna happen!
One of my unlucky ones i just have to bare with for now is filling forms! As much as i have to do it, i just hateeeeeeee it! nothing about it is fun, the look of in on paper isn't flattering at all either. Just one of those stuff we grown ups have to do whether we like it or not.
And to make things worse, filling an application online is such a hassle as it is of convienience. I find it to result in both ways. Like today, my application for my student visa didn't go through due to some network failure on their system database. I retrive again, sama thing. So i emailed them for enquiry matter which is sooo tiring..like its really hard to explain yourself in typing, trying to keep it nice and short. You know how some of them staff are just dumbluck.
The other part, is waiting for their reply. They take ages to reply, and i hate repeating myself.
Makes me feel annoyed with myself.lol

On a happier note, Chinese new year with the family was very mediocre this year as it has always been over the previous years. How i see it with my family, the older we get and handle our own lives seperately, though we stick together but the togertherness as a family sort of alienates us, we just grew apart with the other relatives. It's just a time for our immediate family to bond and share stories, but i can't be bpthered catching up with the others. I only make time when it we plan to go visiting. Getting older laaa..all this just doesn't excite me as much you know, like when you''re still a young girl, any festive celebration or social occasions with family members are the ones you're eager to look forward to, getting presents from your aunt and uncle, mucking around with your cousins, the amount of red packets that for sure brightens up your face. It ain't like that anymore, or in other words, the spirit is just not there. Maybe cause brother Kevin wasn't around. No point having a lavish reunion dinner when the family isn't complete.
Maybe as i get older , i realise its time to tone it down. For me now, "less means more".
By living life with that outlook, i'll be able to appreciate those moments and people even more.

Since being back in KL, ive lived life in the simpliest form. Haven;'t spend much on anything unnesasary, been spending heapss of time at home which is good on many levels with Mum.
Helping around the house, cleaning up places where i usually don't even bother, even being the generous daughter that i am by cooking for the family and stuff. Simple things really that i hope have made them realise I have changed and evolved in my own way being apart from them. I just need to prove that I'm able to take care of things and fix myself up with my own iniatitives, not just getting what i want, but also making up for it.

God willing, the person reading this would to...yayyy!

Ok..tonight is Above and Beyond@ Zouk Kl. Hope i won't be dissapointed.